Sophomore Classes.

A-Period: P.E. w/ Ashmore

1st Period: Spanish 1 w/ Charron

2nd Period: English 2 CP w/ Alcott

3rd Period: Geometry w/ Dominguez

4th Period: Chemistry w/ Torkelson

5th Period: Advanced Choir w/ Ehling

6th Period:World History w/ Ratto

So tell me if we have classes together; yeah?

SHIT! Because I miss you, and it seems like nothing matter's anymore.

If only the things that happened didn't happen, you would still have feelings for me.

lay it out here.

Don’t expect me to be talking to much. Got that straight? Not going to eat much either, I’d rather starve myself. As soon as school starts it’s all about paying attention in school. I ain’t going to get caught up in every one’s drama, try not to get caught up in fuckin’ guys, and talk to my parents if needed. Don’t give me conversations about anything, ask me a question I’ll answer then leave. GOT THAT?!! My life is fucked up, and to make it easier ^^^ that’s the way it’s going to go. I’m living in hell. literally.


and for now on catch me on tumblr, I ain't being explained on two sites. Get caught up in my life on tumblr.{jahmelalala.tumblr.com} got that straight?!

tumblr

So I really don't update this blog that much anymore;; so you can hit up my tumblr: jahmelalala.tumblr.com; sho yeah?

khay peace

So I really don't update this blog that much anymore;; so you can hit up my tumblr: jahmelalala.tumblr.com; sho yeah?

khay peace

tumbling

tumblr is more of an addiction than blogspot is to it.

getaway anybody?

Don't you ever wish that you can go on a big adventure, a getaway? I do all the time.


Feeling trapped in a room, tight spot, close to your peers or family? You have no where to go and you're just really tired of everything, tired of all the noise, screaming and yelling, getting in trouble, everything else. They give you thoughts of just escaping all of that racket, going somewhere else, anywhere else but where you are right now. Take a few days out, by yourself, or with few others? Knowing that no one can stop you and you have all the time in your life, to leave and come back. Knowing that you don't have to deal with anything else but yourself, on that night, having the time of your life. Shutting all the lights down, turn that noise off, close your lips, don't say a word. What do you hear? A soft breeze going through your hair, crickets in the wavy grass, and eyes floating down slowly. Now tell me what you see? PITCH BLACK! Relaxed? May I ask? Response: -----;; just a deep breath. All of a sudden you hear such a thing going through your mind. What do you hear? Such a sound loud but soft. You open your eyes, and then you see your in that room. But hey, guess what you just went on an adventure through where you are aha. Sometimes, just closing your eyes, listening to music, blocking every other annoying sound, will bring your mind some place you'll like to take an adventure one day. And you don't have to worry about going anywhere, at least.... for now(;

past, present eerrr future?

what do you think about more? things from before, where you are now, or what will happen later?

maybe just a lil bit of everything dontcha think?;; or wait no, first think about it.

Let's start from the past shall we?; people say "Oh, man just forget about your past. Move on. Don't make no regrets, and if you do forget about them." aha. You guys are funny, have you guys ever thought that when sometimes people think about their past, that they maybe thinking about good times in the past; and not just the bad things? Well yeah they can. I look at my past daily, thinking of the fun times I had, and people I miss. Yesterday is part of your past, so basically everybody thinks about past right? But don't you wish you can bring back your past to where you are now and re-live it? TIME MACHINE!

Moving on to present can we?; So yeah then they all say "don't think about your past nor your future and live today, that's why they call it present" aha YES we all know that!; every step and breath you take. That what happens from where you are, but really my question is, what is so special about the present? Nothing to think about really it'll only lead you think about your past or future aha! So what kinda present is this? It's not really wrapped in pretty, shiny paper and a bow? ahaa.

Thinking of the future yet? Well duh, last but not least their gonna tell you "don't worry about your future, whatever happen, happens" Not really. You have to think about your future at SOME point, hello like college, job? Sheesh people you guys are so harsh. Let a person be you ain't them aha, get your own life. Mannn xD.


But yeah you see the difference of past, present and future. Which one do you think most of?

Well for my it's my past, because I had pretty good times, and yes also bad. But aye you can't stop me from thinking of what happened before(: Let's just say past is past and I miss it, and even tho I don't have any time machine, ima try to get some of the things I miss or good memories, and re-live it(;

sick at summer vac.

Who get's sick during summer?; OH I know...ME!

So I'm sick, during summer vacation, and a month away from school. Feeling the same exact way I felt when I went to the ER -__-; it's so retarded. I didn't feel well, and then it's like my mom acted like she didn't care still, even when I am sick. *sigh* My throats so swollen, it hurts. My back hurts, and I can't walk right. Hopefully nothing bad will happen, or at least something worse. And then now I can't go out for few days, but it's best if I rest. Tho I wish to see someone, even if I get 5 minutes of seeing him aha. My mom really doesn't like him, but I really don't care right now. I'm sick and restless, and I have like no patience. But yeah, hopefully I'm not sick for a long time. Because I'm not starting school being sick, or just healed -__-"

just plain bullshit

Even when it's summer, to have the "time of your life" you still deal with the same bullshit you had during the school year? Gaah damn!

If you don't go to church because your hella tired in the morning or jus cos, your mom will give you a lecture saying "fine if you don't go to church then you can't go out because your tired, (10 minutes later) I'm serious of what I told you, you can't go out! You have time for your friends, but not time for an hour? (speaking in tagalog with cussin)" then she says "you keep doing this then you'll end up being grounded for the rest of your summer! I don't' care!" What the hell kind of mom would do that? Seriously, I wake up hearing her yelling cos she mad about some family situation, then ends up letting her anger out on me?!; I'm serious no offense, but when my brother does the same exact things as me, he never gets yelled at or gets in trouble. A L W A Y S me -____-; I feel adopted to this damn family. Then I also hate how freakin people get in your business it's just annoying, if it's not mentioned to you then just mind your own business because your not part of it. Then one most stupid thing, people just giving you bull shit for the stupidest things... I'm serious I wish I had a different life!

^^^^BS!

summer 09'

well summer 09' has just begun(:

Many plans ahead of me. From San Diego to Florida. aha. I think that this summer might just be the best summer ever, because I met many new people in my freshmen school year. I already have so much plans with hella people and i know I'm not going to waste my time. Its all about having fun in the sun, late night phone calls, webcam parties, walks on the beach, night swimming, parties at my place, and basically just making summer 09' just the best memory I could ever look back to. I really want to remember this summer, so give me some plans(:, aha, oh and ++ walk with me at the beach and I will love you forever<3(;

ask me when i'm free(:

FRESH

It started on the 27th of March; I thought that I was going to be happy again when I said yes, in the end it all turned out the way he wanted it to be, April 25th he ended things and hurt me so much. She said promises are meant to be broken I never would of believed her and yet the promise he made was broken. From that point; I wanted to quit, and because of him I thought I wouldn't trust no guys anymore. But the thing is it's not about quiting , or caring about trusting guys, its about learning from those mistakes you made. Me, I know I learned them and really I don't trust anymore guys, but if they really prove to me that their worth my time, and that they wont hurt me and actually keep their promises; i'll learn to trust that certain guy. Taking a break is one thing I would like to do for now; and yes I'm doing that and its going easy and I'm more free(=; I know that theirs couples out there that I would like to be one day, but hey its my time, family and friends is a must fer me right now. I may not know what love is yet; but I know I will find it and when I do i'll get back atcha. But fer now its me and them. not him, them. mhm; no regrets; starting out fresh without yer troubles. & thanks fer letting me go, I cried and got hurt from you, but thanks because now I'm more free(= && to yourself; i hope your happy too.

SPRANG BREAK!(=

okhay so a late spring break blog? yeup its fine tho; mhm(=

mon-thurs. so like L.A. wasn't the greatest place to spend spring break xP Many people went there and had fun; me not so much, all i did was go to like 4, 3-story Forever 21's and it was fun getting new clothes but boring as faccck at the same time! -_-" mhm; and at the same time it was freezing down there, seriously i was home sick so much xP. that was the first part of spring break. friday. so stayed home cos' cousin moving next door -_-" another thing to get pissed off about freals tho? because i mean i go to school with her; aint that enough? omg now next door AGH! lifes retarded at times isnt it? so i went over helped paint a lil bit then chilled; got some food at 7-eleven walked(= getting some excersise. saturday. i went to great america with a few of my buddies; and gots the season pass yup yup(= it was so fun; i got garlic fries and a churro and they were delicious yuhm yuhm; i met new people thats cool i love meeting new heads. i discovered a new resturant its very yuhmmyxP. sunday. omg the last day of spring break and it was the best evereverever! you know why? cos' i was with my bestie mhm(= it was so freaking fun me and her were like YES our time to hang out; missin home yaknow? xD so we kicked it at the mall; walked around few times get food? i think. oh wait yes we did; we got burger king and we walked to toys r us to eat there it was fun(: yup. then we walked back to the mall and just kicked it a lil more. we bought chalk from target to chalk around infront of my front door yaknows? we walked back home and it was BURNIN ass hot! we were so lazy to hold the chalk in the box so we used this stick and from end to end we held the stick hahahaha. when we got home we resteded?; on my bed and ate otther pops yuhm yuhm=D. after that we checked if the pool was open -_-" was not! stupid VIRGINIA! dont ask. so we got our chalk in the box and we started drawing picx on the sidewalk. funfun(= then it got late we washed everything off; and we dropped her home. BOO. so thats my spring break i think on suday was like the best time ever; id rather have done that my whole spring break rather than the other things i did agh. but yup after spring break we have a biolalagy final and star testing the next week BLAGH! whatever okhay i hope your spring break was better than mine(=.

New Semester!

SHIET THO!

NEW SEMESTER!
haha i really need keep my grade to an A! so i can past =/
urgh! damn school almost over tho? righ? ahaha
dang tho lets see if i'll past 9th grade=)

FINALS

FINALS WAS GAY!

high school is weird and mean! why the hell did we have finals? do they just want to torture us get our brains bazooked?! wtf?! everyone stressing, worrying? damn whacked! stupid finals! EVERYONE study for your next and final finals lol. make sure you dont faint because you studied to much and worried to much hahah! wishing to go back to elementary to just worry about 1+1 and abc's and nappy time hahaha x] crack crack crack WHACK!

merry christmas and happy new year!

first off: [late]
MERRY CHRISTMAS
my christmas wasn't really good. was yours? i am in the philippines during christmas not that fun as i expected it to be.

soo New Years is coming up 2009! I think that 2009 will be a better year for me, because pretty much i've learned through all of my mistakes and regrets. But really I made it through 2008 because I had the special people right next to me when I needed help... and when 2009 comes I know I can count on them.


Ate Camille:
Camille because she was the one that got me through my problems. She is a really close friend of mine, my sister; ate. If I didn't have her I wouldn't really be able to get through my problems. She gives me great advice and i really appreciate it. I can count on her anytime because she's always theere for me no matter what, through thick&&thin. I really love her no matter what people tell me because she's like the best person i've eveer met. Thanks for everything you done for me=) love you ate!

Uncle Poopie:
Rodney is my uncle, and he is another person that help me throughout 08'. Even though he's busy I know he can help me out sooner or later. His advice also helps me out. He's a protective uncle and really I appreciate that. I can really depend on him 24/7; 365. I love you poopie.

Kuya:
Mark is my brother. Through 08' me and him had to go through some changes moving houses and getting used to everything, and he is really one person that i can depend on when i need it even if its 1 am in the morning. When I feel like shit xD I CAN come to him but sometimes I don't. When 09' comes I want to learn how to talk to him so I don't feel like i'm trapped in my house. But even though my brother and I fight, I still love him no matter what, and hey we sometimes get along but next year will be even better. love you kuya.

Ate Anna:
Anna is my cousin. Okhay, well lately i've been coming to her for help and it gets me through everything. Even though she's not with me I know she is taking care of me and she has been since I was a baby. She is my best cousin I could have. Thanks for everything Ate Anna. I love you<3>

Leah:
My bestfriend since kindergarten. okhay well i met her first in kindergarten ahah and like she was one person I could depend on. when I moved away in 2002 I felt like I would never see her again, then one day came when I saw her at the mall and I though we would be close again, but got no things to catch up with her then when this year came i saw her again and this time we got in contact and now were close again and knowing she'll be there for 09' my life will go so much easier knowing she's right there to catch me everytime I fall. love you bestie!

Ate Kaye: Kaye is my Ate. What can I say, she's like my twin. I can come to her anyday and everyday and when I talk to her about my problems I really can say she helps me because she's been through it too. She's really good help when I need it. 09' is going to be good with her because I know she is there to help me through it say and night, thick and thin.

Tammy: Tammy is my penguin. She is like my everything i'm not eve kidding. haha shes so cute xD. This girl is like ugh i'm speechless xD. Ever since I got close to her everything got more fun she is so funny and she always has a smile on my face. i've never seen her sad before lol. But without her everything would be gay xD i love you tammy!

Hang: Hang is my love. What can I say about her? hmmm? Well I just got close to her in 8th grade. And she's a really cool and fun person to han gout with. I can really say I trust her no matter what people tell me because she's the best. We have went through thick&&thin but still were good friends. Even thhough we don't talk as much or hang out as much I know were still friends. Love you hang. Well that really tops it all=) can't wait for 2009 I hope no I KNOW it will be better. Have a great new year's everybody! =)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

hey everybody, just dropping by real fast just to say HAPPY THANKSGIVING!=)<3 friend=") parents:
for encouraging me to keep my goals, to be what i am today. they help me out every single day even though they don't tell me things every day. i appreciate them being next to me every single day guiding me through my life, my quest, my journey, without them i would be restless. i love you guys very much and i hope everything goes great on thanksgiving!
atecamille:
i am very very thankful for having my sister camille in my life because she helps me throughout my problems. even though she doesn't have time for every single problem i have i know that she is out there listening to me and caring for me. knowing that a sister like her is out there for me is the best. i love her since the day we met. i love you ate and thanks for everything.
unclepoopie:
because he is my hero! he's the person that i come running to every single day. when i need help. he's one of those people that i can tell anything too, anything and everything. i love how he understands everything that i tell him because it helps me get out everything. and i am greatful for all the advice he tells me. i love you unclepoopie<3
kuya:
because i love him. even though we don't talk as much or we don't communicate as much i know he is there to listen and help me throughout my life. he is a good influence to me and i try following his footsteps i love you kuya forever.
valbestfriend:
i am also thankful for having val my bestfriend in my life. he understand practically everything i tell him and no matter what we don't fight because we go through it. his action towards me is unbelievable. its great knowing that a guy is out there caring for me x] i love you val.
tammypenguin:
another person i am thankful for having in my life would be tammyKONG. she's the one that makes me smile every single day of my life since i met her=) i cant trust her with anything i tell her and i know she wouldn't tell anyone i trust her with my secrets. and mos especially i love the advice she gives me everyday when i need help. really if i didn't have her in my life then i would be worthless and a drag! tammy i love you always and forever know that k? thanks for being next to me every single day i love you so much=) 102008<3
hangypoobear:
i am thankful for having my good friend hangLE besides me everyday she guides me at points when i need it. and she gives me great advice. i can trust her with anything. shes like my twin shes so cool i love her. i am so glad that i got close to her this year[08] because probably without her i wouldn't be what i am now. and i would just have to say thanks han and i love you=)
and to top it all....

my family for helping me throughout me life.


i love you guys all and happythanksgiving=)

LEARNit.

I don't know why the f*** people go around school and tell other people shiet!


I am who I am! I don't give a shit if you guys think I'm changing, its high school EVERYONE CHANGES! So don't be going to other people saying that she's changing. OK I AM CHANGING AND I DON'T GIVE A SHIT OF WHAT YOU SAY! Yeh I have new friends, my attitude is different but fuck you need to change sometime! Don't judge me if you don't even know me, cause that is just BULLSHIT! Especially if I just met you don't judge me from what you hear and don't believe everything you hear! Don't go around talking about me because you don't even know me! Don't even try to fix things out with me; if you just gonna talk shit still. so just...FUCK OFF!



freakin get a life and judge yourself before others damn -_-"

weak OR strong??

"you have to be weak to realize your strong"
-??

august 15th was the day I really got hurt...
I cried and cried and cried, but still I made it through...

but there is a reason i had made it through those 4 days; its because I had my family and my best friend right there with me..
[ate kaye, ate margaux, ate, trisha, ate marie, nica]
[vince]

really though without them I wouldn't be me now, strong and worthy.
the guy who hurt me wasn't the person I met at first.
i said bad things that I wanted to do to myself but then I talked everything through with all of them and they said it wasn't worth it, i realized yeah it wasn't. Crying was all I could do to let everything out but I shouldn't of cried over something worthless like him...

P.S.
thanks for all the help you guys gave me.... :]

which the quote is true I got weak and now i realized that I am the strongest I could be.

one word: cruising

shy shy shy shy shy;;


that's all i can say, shy is how i acted around the cruise lol :]

[monday] just went on a cruise to the Bahamas and it was soo much funners lol. the boat was called the Norwegian Sky a.k.a NCL for Norwegian Cruise Line. The first day we got on we went and looked around the boat and see what was on deck. the day i got on i saw this hellof cute ass guy, i didn't know his name at first but in the end i did, [that means you have to wait till the end to find his name]. so back to the beginning, our rooms (cabin) was small, maybe the size of my room haha, shower was hellofz small.

[tuesday] the second day while i was on the cruise i went to an island called Freeport the 2nd biggest island out of 200 islands that make up Bahamas. we took a tour around Freeport about 190 bucxx :/ it wasn't even that good of a tour lol. we went souveneir shopping at freeport on 2 places one was small and the other was big we moslty bought everything there.

[wednesday] going on to the third day i went to Atlantis, it was kind of boring because there was no one to hang out with besides adults/grown-ups, gurrr.. swimming at the beach was prtty fun; sooo salty hurts the eyes it burrnnns :O haha, i saw the AQUA-rium so biggaz stingrays oUch/z/z/z.. and fishez',',',',' no nimo or dory sadly garurrr lol.. wen we went back we went shopping again for souveneirs. it was so funny my dad was finding a louis vuton bag for my mom and we went everywhere, when he finally found one and he didn't have enough money so he told the lady "i will get my brother" and she said "yeah ok fine" when he came back the louis vuton bag was already to go, my dad told her" ill look around more, ill come back" then she said "how much you want to pay? just give me 45 now" and my dad was saying" ill come back later" so she just said" don't come back anymore!" lol it was so funny xD

[thursday] we went to a private beach.. it was more fun there because we went a little bit of snorkeling the sand was white sand which was much better, and just swimming. then we got up and ate and rest for a little. after that they went back and took a quick nap, when i got up i saw the guy again playing volleyball with his brother kevin, then they walked back after and he passed by me but he never saw me, but then when he was going back to the volleyball area he noticed me but then he didn't say hi to me. :/ sucxx sadly;; i saw erin after the guy and so i asked my dad if i could just go back to the ship with her because they were about to leave. and so i stayed and we got to go on da flotar thingy it was awesome :) that same night we met up with aaron, dylan and angela and hung out. while we went up to the 8th floor for erin we saw the guy i thought was cute annnddd.. [we finally found out what his name was] his name was matt, he is thaiwanese, and he is either 13 or 15 lol they heard one of those. we all got introduced with him so yeah..

[friday] the day we went home we woke up at 6 in the morning just so we could get in the fracking shuttle! uhhh so tired throughout the whole day, and throughout the whole day we were on airplanes in airports; asss hurt like frick! whatever and so i got home around 10 last night arrrrrrgg; so yeah no more v-cations.

so blah.dy-blah.d-blllaaaahhhgggg :P